Nothing left to give

Last week I had one of those days that at the end of all you want is a glass of wine, a quiet room, and maybe a good cry.  These types of days don't happen often for me, but when they do, I'm a huge baby about it and get so snippy, feel sorry for myself, and usually take it out on my poor husband as soon as he walks in the door.  On this particular day we had planned to go for a family run when Chris got home from work, but when he got home the last thing I wanted to do was go for a run with Brenna.  So, when he asked if I was ready, I made some snarky comment and Chris suggested I just go by myself and he would take Brenna.  I decided to run with my iPod, which I very rarely do, but figured it might help me unwind.  With about a mile to go on my run, one of my favorite songs by Relient K started playing.  At first, I wasn't paying much attention to the lyrics, just singing them in my head from memory, but then it got to the chorus...

Yeah I'll give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give

The words hit me like a ton of bricks and I literally stopped running and started crying right there on the sidewalk, with all the 5:00 traffic bustling by on the busy road.  

In the past when I've listened to this song, I've interpreted it to mean "I'll give my all to you, Lord." But on that run it was saying so much more to me about motherhood and the complete selflessness it requires.  Some days I really do feel like I have nothing left to give anymore, like everyone needs something from me, but there just isn't enough to go around.  My natural reaction is, obviously, sass and impatience.  But it shouldn't be, because when we are at the end of our rope and feel like we can't give anymore, that's when the Big Man upstairs will step in and give us a boost if we ask.  My problem is admitting that I need help, that I can't do it alone, that there really isn't enough of me to go around, but if I just accept some of His love, I can pass it right along to the people who need it from me.

After I pulled myself together and ignored looks from passing cars, I set the song on repeat and listened to it the rest of the way home.  

No one told me
The right way
The right way to go about this
So I'll figure it out for myself
'Cause how much is too much to give you?
Well I'll may never know
So I'll just give until there's nothing else

Yeah I'll give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left
I'll give

No one told me
How bad I need you (need you)
But I somehow arrived
To that conclusion all by myself (all by myself)
And I want
All you have to offer (to offer)
So I'll offer myself and I'll just give until there's nothing else

And I'll give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)

Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to
Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left

Sometimes it seems
Like all I ever do
Is ask for things
Until I ask too much of you
But that's not the way (that's not the way)
I wanna live (I wanna live)
I need to change (I need to change)
But something's got to give
Yeah something's got to

Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give (and I'll have no regrets)
I'll give until there's nothing left to give
Give, give, give (until there's nothing else)
Give my all (until it all runs out)
Give, give
Give until there's nothing left
I'll give